Sunshine

Today is a cold chilly day. The sign board across the street says its 13 degrees. A day when its easy to be kind of miserable and feel sorry for yourself. I was sitting at my desk staring out the window imagining a different life, where Josh has a fantastic job, I work part time at a job I actually love, spend most of my time with my sweet precious boy, and we pay all the bills on time. I dream of a world where we don't have to cram as much life as possible into those oh so short evenings. Then I stop, as I see the faces of those around me, faces lined with worry, faces sitting outside in the cold with nowhere to go, faces of those losing their homes to foreclosure, faces with no jobs. And I sadly realize that I am being selfish. I have a beautiful sweet baby, a man who loves me (with a job!), a house that fits all our needs, plenty to eat, the heater running at full speed, everything Mason could possibly need and much more really, and the list goes on. Sure life is wasn't what I pictured it would be when Josh got done with school, but in all reality we are so massively blessed. I can either sit here imagining that different life, or I can live the life God has graciously given me. The world outside no longer seems so miserable, and the sun peeks into my window. Just another reminder of the gifts I have every day.